I began taking the placenta pills again last week. I stopped for a bit and felt my world spiraling around me, taking out my pain on my 4 and 2 year old and not soaking in the gooey goodness of the new baby. I already feel better, motivated to eat more, drink more water and get out into the fresh air. Wow. PPD is a strong force. I wonder why it exists? And if it has for always or something that has evolved since mothers are truly tribeless and community-less, isolated and overwhelmed. I know it is real, more real that flesh and blood itself. It hurts.

I look forward to reading you more.

Many blessings and light,
mb

thank you mb, for coming by my space. i often wonder the same thing ~ maybe our diet has contributed to an off-balance hormone system (although some schools of thought say it doesn’t begin with hormones), in my own case it was so many factors, all emotional and mental, and yes, living in a community but not feeling like i was part of one. i was also anemic after her birth, so i had very little energy to interact with my daughter, let alone meet other new moms or even walk in the neighborhood. i can only imagine the nutrients i would have rec’d from her placenta…and it leads down a path where i don’t like to spend alot of time on ~ how would her infancy been for both of us had i been well? now that hurts…which is why writing the story about how i survived will really put those haunting thoughts at peace.

be well mb, i’ll be around your space to see how you’re doing. love, lil

thanks bohomom…it’s proving tougher than i thought to get my story out…it’s like pulling a tooth (i know you can appreciate that)….Lil

Thanks for your comment on my post today. If you would, e-mail me from your e-mail. I’d love to write to you but can’t seem to find your e-mail.

Peace and love and light,
Jane
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thanks for your support jane…i’m doing what i can to give back and pay it forward, i wouldn’t have survived PPD without the help of the help i rec’d from the medical staff at the hospitals, group therapy or my family and friends. i just want to get the word out that it’s real, it’s dangerous, but mostly, it can be overcome. Lil

I ignored it for a long time, and as a result I wound up divorced, and later lost primary custody of my children. (Well not so much lost it, but my depression and lack of confidence in myself as a mother let me give in to their father’s requests/demands in mediation.)

I hope your blog will bring light and hope to mothers in this headspace, and help them find the strength they need to get through it.

Wow Krystyn, it sounds like it was pretty destructive ~ and you’ve had it for this long??!! That is my hope…that my blog will be one of the many that are available now to help women see beacons of hope while on their illnesses path. You and I both know it’s not something that one get over like the flu…it hangs on, and for me, I needed to seek help and put “saftey plans” in place lest I did something I was going to regret when I too came out of it. Thanks for your support! Lil xo

Thanks you Sorrow! I’m putting blood, sweat and tears into this one…it’s really close to my heart because I’m proud of surviving it and humbled completely by the experience. Erm, I have 7 blogs…but I don’t post on all of them regularily, they just birthed for one reason or another and I don’t have the heart to delete them! (((((hugs)))) back! xo Lil